More Mount Beppo – Guest Shooter Alison Raynor

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I need to persuade my head to give me a break from my own difficulties for an hour or so. Let’s have some beautiful images from our guest shooter, Alison Raynor. Alison lives in Toogoolawah in Queensland, Australia. She has been a guest shooter here before. She is getting right into sunrises and has sent me some very nice ones. I’ll devote most of this post to her images and fill in at the end with an update on my currently miserable life.

This is not the prettiest of the lot, but it has four items of interest, namely four black cockatoos. You may have to click to enlarge to see them:

Along with the photo, Alison included this amusing comment.

The old farmers here have a  saying that, when there are an uneven number of black cockatoos overhead that means that there will be rain.  Well, it’s an interesting theory which can be listed alongside the one that says that if you see the long neck turtles walking uphill it is also a sign of BIG rain, not to mention the swarming of the flying ants (termites) that are said to mean HUGE rain, possibly floods (if the swarm is big enough).   The thing is, that the later two are both quite accurate and make sense if one chooses to analise the natural reasoning behind what initially seems to be a crazy “old cockies tail”.

I did not count the total number of cockatoos this morning, as I was too busy with the camera, but soon found out that the stunning light and colour show that was capturing  my attention in the east was actually an  insidious diversion for what was  sneaking up and preparing to thrash me from behind. A big thunderous black cloud full of flatulence and cold water. Mmmmmm?

Here is another more colourful shot:

And one even more so:

The best of the bunch, I’d say.

In the cloud here I see some curious banding which I can’t explain:

Is it an omen? No, wait. I don’t believe in omens. I’d go really crazy if I did.

This isn’t a sunrise, but it’s my favourite of these images:

Alison’s veranda looks like a peaceful place to me. I’d like to spend some time there – in a peaceful place.

Thank you, Alison for a little time off.

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The ruckus in my head continues – intensifies. When it rains it pours. I won’t bore you with the growing list of Things I Never Thought Of. Let’s just say that every day seems to bring some new, terrifying fact to light. The renter in the house in Brownsburg has chosen this fine time to move out, leaving me with a house that’s empty, earning no income and not in good shape. Oh, did I mention that I have joined the immense club of those owing more on their house than it’s worth and having no money to pay the payments? Yes, that’s me – a joiner.

Does grief magnify one’s problems? I suppose it could. I don’t know. This is my first experience with bone-rattling grief – the kind of grief that makes you feel weak and shaky all the time and won’t let you sleep.

By the way, I’ve stopped asking what else can go wrong.

The possible answers terrify me.

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20 Responses to “More Mount Beppo – Guest Shooter Alison Raynor”

  1. kristy Says:

    prayers and hugs

  2. Ahna Says:

    Uncle Jan. Holly lives in Brownsburg and is a real estate agent too. Give her a call and see what she can do for you. I think she would be thrilled.
    I love the peaceful place. I swear if I come across some lotto money I will make my way to you and spend some time. You can teach me to snorkle or dive. Just hanging with you would be fun to sit with a cold beer and talk camera shots.
    You are a wonderful person and you know God does not give you any more than you can handle, but there is times you begin to wonder if you made him mad. LOL I know have been there several times in the last few years.

    Love Ahna

  3. Juliet Says:

    Jan: Handle one thing at a time and just keep moving, don’t stop…one day soon you will realize the pain is manageable. But for now keep moving forward…don’t worry, you are not leaving Eunie behind..she is right there with you, keep moving foreward Jan………

  4. Ali Says:

    Grief does magnify your problems Jan, no doubt about it!

    It could be that you are experiencing “The Smart Survival Test” ? I am told is designed (by someone smarter than us ) to see just how much cra*p can you can take dumped on you all at once (when you are already down of course?) Smart, because it INSISTS that you concentrate harder on something other than your original problem.

    So, when you have clawed your way out the otherside of all the “test cr*p” you probably won’t feel great, but you will feel a hell of a lot stronger and able to cope with the general “stuff of life”

    Doesn’t help right now I am sure, but hang in there. It sounds like you may already have found a helpful friend in Brownsburg.. I do hope so?….Life deals bad cards sometimes, but it doesn’t mean you can’t win the hand.

    Oh BTW, thanks for your kind words about my photos. I am appreciating sunrises more and more the older I get. You actually helped me to realise what I was missing every time I looked at your photos. Keep on inspiring us ametuers, Jan.

    There is a comfy chair and cold beers on our peaceful veranda at Beppo, when ever you are ready to join us … not to mention a big yellow plane ready to take you up and get those knees in the breeze. ha ha

  5. Sue Fletcher Says:

    Focus on the wonderful sun rises more…thinking about them…and think what Eunice wants for you. Hopefully these will be a little help.
    Prayers for you.

  6. Fortescue Bullrout Says:

    The nudibranchs are waiting for you.

  7. MadDog Says:

    Thanks, Kristy. I need both.

  8. MadDog Says:

    Ahna, can you send me an email with her email address and phone number? I would like to get hold of her to see what she can do. I suppose that I’ve done plenty to make God mad, but I don’t for a minute that God takes that out on other people. And I’m not mad at God for taking Eunie. It was her time. I’m not mad at God because of all the stuff I have to deal with not. I don’t have time to get mad. That would just make things worse.

    If you get rich, come on over.

  9. MadDog Says:

    Juliet, good advice and that’s exctly what I’m doing – moving forward. It is a bumpy road with all kinds of things lurking in the darkness nearby. I just have to take it one step at a time.

  10. MadDog Says:

    Fortescue, I went for a dive on Saturday. Didn’t get many good shots, but I’ll be putting some up soon.

  11. MadDog Says:

    Sue, the idea the Eunie is with me and watching me is a great help.

  12. MadDog Says:

    Thanks, Ali, for the wonderful comment. I wish that I could compose a suitable reply. I’ll just say that it’s a nicely expanded version of “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger”.

    You keep appreciating your sunrises, my friend. I was so happy that you were able to attend Eunie’s memorial service in Gympie with a new friend — The Meat Lady, no less!

    Someday I will take you up on that offer of a peaceful, comfy chair and a ride in the big yellow plane.

  13. Ali Says:

    Yes Jan, so very glad that we could be with you in Gympie.
    Carolyn is a lovely new friend and we both have you and Eunie to thank for our….. “meating” ( tee hee. )
    Fantastic to hear you are back in the water and can’t wait to see the pics.

  14. Lynne Woods Says:

    Yes, Jan, grief magnifies a lot; and the only way out of it is through it. Remembering shakiness; this will pass as the miracles of each moment draw you closer and enfold you with love.

  15. MadDog Says:

    Lynn, I think the shakiness is probably from the adrenaline pumping through my body. My stress is accompanied by many fears. Fear causes a physical reaction. I can feel a sinking inside when I face problems and the future. My ears get hot and my toes get cold. It feels as if someone is pointing a gun at me. I have a ridicullous urge to run away. Adrenaline gives you the shakes. I also think that is why I’m having so much trouble sleeping.

  16. Lynne Woods Says:

    Yep, been there; you’re normal. Your stress is compounded by several things not common to the average person, but when have you been average! Hold on to what you know, and give yourself ample opportunities to lean on close friends who will help you get your ‘land legs’ back so to speak – you’ve been in a whirlpool and it will take a while to re-center. There are a lot of things (mostly stupid) that you can do to prolong the grief, but not much to shorten it

  17. Steve Bennett Says:

    That sure does look like a nice Veranda to sit for a while 🙂

  18. MadDog Says:

    Lynn, I have never been called “average”. I don’t know what to make of that, so I’ll take it as a complement. I’m certainly leaning on my friends!

  19. MadDog Says:

    Lynne, I hate these shakes. I know that it’s caused by the adrenaline pumping through my arteries. I get a few minor panic attacks each day and then I start to shake. All that makes it very hard to sleep at night, but I keep falling asleep during the day.

  20. MadDog Says:

    Yeah, Steve. I could use some time out there.